Nurse Burnout leads to 2 yrs off work
Here is my story
I have been in the nursing profession for 18 years. Most of my profession has been community nursing (visiting Nurse). I was always grateful for my position and absolutly loved my job, the clients and co-workers.
After 8 years with a certain agency working as a visiting nurse, I started experiencing some physical symptoms that even my Doctor could not explain. Bladder leakage, constipation, joint pains along with agitation, irritability and loss of interest in my relationships etc.. June 10th 2010 I went to the Doctor and asked for a sick note for 2 weeks. I needed a break. The stress from work was getting worse, the added demands of paper work from the CCAC and dealing with Case Managers that doubted my presence and needs by my clients and constantly fighting for clients that needed a nurse, long hours of paper work and responsibilities with family has all taken its toll. I had enough and thought that 2 weeks off would help me cope and return back to work refreshed. That did not happen.
The doctor diagnosed me with depression and acute anxiety, went on EI sick benefits which then turned into disability which was paid through private insurance through work. Ive seen 3 Psychiatrists, 1 Psychotherapist, been on Cipralex which made me worse. I turned to drinking on a nightly basis to help me cope. I have low self esteem. And to help matters worse, I have been cut off disability (they told me I do not have enough evidence to support my case). Its hard to keep up with all their demands when you are depressed but I did everything they wanted.
Friends and family are telling me to go back to work doing anything, easy for them to say, they mean well, but its hard. I need help!