Burnout in a nutshell
I have only been a nurse for a little over two years and am already experiencing what I believe to be nurse burnout. For my first job as a nurse I worked on a Med-Surg floor. I went in excited and with high expectations, but these were quickly dismissed. The stress level was too high, the nurses didn't get help when they needed it and towards the end of my employment with this hospital I was frequently getting calls to come in on my off days. I cried almost every night before going into work and eventually had to be put on Xanax to control my anxiety. I did everything to cope with this stress, including switching to night shift. I noticed that I was changing as a person including becoming more negative, not enjoying life as I should and really feeling down on myself. I was even beginning to question my marriage and really life in general. After almost two years of having to work at this job (mostly related to financial constraints), I finally quit and have started working for another hospital on a PCU floor. Like before starting my first job, I was hopeful that this change of atmosphere would help me to feel better. The problem is I am beginning to feel the same way as I did before. I know that floor nursing is not my "cup of tea," but I am currently on my MSN to become a Nurse Educator and I hate to quit another job. Am I just overeacting? Any ideas or words that I am not crazy would be greatly appreciated.
Confused young nurse