burnout I guess
I have been a nurse for my adult life. I am 50.
For the past 10 years I have worked in hospice/palliatve care. I feel I am a good nurse, kind, caring, reliable, I follow through things.
Lately however, I am feeling depressed, sad, low energy and I am starting to get anxiety over the patients that I see. I seem to take on their anxiety, or the anxiety of a family member. Since I work with dying people, its like my whole day is sad. This never used to bother me before, I was able to put it into perspective, but now its with me all the time.
My management has tried to lighten my load for me, and it feels a bit better, but then something sends me off again down this anxiety road. I seem to take on thier aches and pain and worries that I'm getting what they have.
Anyone else relate to this?
Of course I think I am crazy.....